In preparation for the onslaught of injectable medications, early morning
monitoring hours, sober life and just general anxiety that is the IVF
process, I have been living the past few weeks as if I am about to go to
the electric chair. Bottomless glasses of wine, all the shellfish I can eat,
iced coffee bonanzas, unpasteurized cheese out the wazoo, late nights, gin and
tonics. The only thing I have not taken part in is aggressive exercise.
Because let's be honest, that just isn't fun. In fact, the only thing I love
about being a "high risk" pregnancy person is the fact that I CAN'T
exercise. It's like, totally against doctor's orders. Although I have been lamenting the caffeine free days
ahead, it occurred to me that maybe I need to alter my outlook on all of
this. Instead of focusing on all the "dont's" that are about to
inundate my life (let's hope), perhaps it would behoove me to put energy
towards the positives. Like, all this "stuff", medications and otherwise,
might actually work (again, let's hope). When you are about to jump on the IVF train
or just going the old- fashioned route and "trying" again after
multiple pregnancy losses, it's hard not to feel as though you are in the
penalty box or the fetal police is on your tail. You see your other pregnant
friends, those who aren't "high risk" who can adopt a much more
laissez-faire attitude about the whole in utero thing, that they can actually
have a glass of wine without anxiety. Bonkers! What is that like?
Well, I guess I will never know. Just like I won't know how this will
turn out. The one thing I do know with full certainty is that should all of
this result in a healthy full- term pregnancy and healthy baby, then it is all
worth it.
Now pass the rosé!
- Jennifer
PS- Some of you have inquired about Kira's whereabouts. Well, the lucky and
lovely Kira is abroad visiting family but will be back very soon. In the
meantime, I hate to say it but you're stuck with me.
This is so good.....and true!
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